The message I received early in life is you better learn how to be tough because no one is coming to your rescue. If you are hungry, learn to cook, if you are hurting, toughin up, and if you are in need, don’t count on me. Some of us grew up in households where we learned that the way to survive was to survive. Whatever it took, you better figure it out. That was me.
I didn’t have a soft, cushy life, with mom and dad sitting down at the table for dinner asking about my day. My parents fought all the time, and me and my siblings were left to our own devices. We were the latchkey kids who knew how to cook full meals before the age of 11, steal, beg, find food on the plum trees and discover imagination in the woods. We came home when the streetlight came on and got ready to do it again the next day.
Maybe you can relate to that story. Maybe not as a child, but definitely today. You feel all alone, like no one is there for you since you found out the truth of your Hebrew identity or who the true Israelites are. Big Mama used to love for vou to come around of the cookout. church gathering, family holidays, etc. Now, you are the weird one. The outcast of the family and everyone does their best to avoid conversation with you because they know what’s coming.
It’s tough, right? It’s tough to remember the times where y’all could laugh and enjoy each others’ company without everything feeling so strained. I know where you’re at and how you feel. I often say, it already feels like we are in the wilderness of the people! You feel me?
I’m not going to sit here and act like I have it figured out; the key to remove your sense of loneliness in this world. Honestly, I hurt, too. long for a friendly face or three. But all of my pain in life was preparing me for this moment right here, I just didn’t know it. Everytime my peers rejected me, Yah was preparing me.
Well, I got the courage to finally tell Him exactly how I felt and asked if He could show me His grace, mercy and love. When I got up from my time of prayer, this is where He directed me: O give thanks to Yahuah, for He is good; for His mercy and loving-kindness endure forever.
Psalm 136:1
The ENTIRE psalm, in every verse, includes those words: His loving-kindness endure forever! I was absolutely blown away! Friend, I want to encourage you to find your secret place. I know it’s not easy and the enemy and our flesh fight us at every turn. But if you are lonely, ashamed, broken, exhausted, abandoned or abused, Yah is our Father and He will be there for you ilke no one else can
Be of good courage. Truly, we are not alone.
